Single mother need help

Im from Glendale Arizona I’m 27years old soon to be 28 December 24th Christmas Eve. I’m a single mother to 5 babies all 9 and younger. Dealing with 5 kids by myself is so hard. My oldest daughter has her own dad he’s not doing anything for her or even trying to see her. I lost 3 of my kids father a few years ago he passed away. My youngest son his father didn’t want to be in the picture at all. Life has been so hard on me these past years. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia a mental illness in 2021 I have to be on sedating medication. I get an injection once a month and it’s very effective and strong. I’m always tired and sleepy some days can’t even get out of bed. Which makes it harder to be a mother to my kids. I can’t even work because I’m so tired and stuck in my bed all day I would miss work if I had a job and end up loosing a job. I’m on social security but because I don’t have enough work experience I can’t receive SSDI I receive SSI and the most they give for SSI is $900 a month and I only qualified for $600 a month. That’s no where near enough to live. It really sucks. My life is depressing I feel like my life got thrown away when this mental illness came. I use to be fun, outgoing, happy and I loved myself. I loved to sing and design clothes. I loved to do my hair and makeup and get ready and look cute. I’m a very pretty girl and I know that but me being sick in my head like this made me forget about myself. I lost myself. I don’t do any of that no more. I just want to share my story and ask that if anybody can help me anything would be appreciated. It will go to mainly my kids and their needs of course. If you can’t help me today I ask that you pray for me. Pray that GOD continues to watch over me and give me the strength I need to keep going. That he heals me from this illness and I find a solution that will make me feel like myself again. I’ll keep pushing and keep going. My kids are my motivation. I’ll be looking into other options and medications because I do have to continue being medicated. My mental illness is a gift but a scary gift. I’m special. I see, hear, and feel things others can’t. I’ve learned to accept it. I’m okay the medication is strong and makes me feel like a zombie but it does keep the voices away. I can’t wait to be me again. That’s my goal and I want to accomplish that. So I can’t also be a better mom to my babies. Thank you for your time. I love you all. Here is my PayPal, cash app and email if you’d like to contact me. 

Paypal - https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/Prettyrina95 or you can just use my Username @Prettyrina95 and my Cash App -$Prettyrinaaa95 Email - [email protected]